couldn't know..

couldn't know..
i miss you so much..
this is the 4th day i couldn't hear your voice..
its like an addiction..
used to receive your morning kiss every morning..
used to wait for your call after your work..
used to listen to you before i sleep..
dear,i miss you!!!
counting down to the day you come back!!
3 days to go!!!

星期六

今天是男友离开的第一天。。
中午十二点，去the curve吃收工酒。。
然后自己到1utama闲逛。。
第一次自己逛那么久耶。。
买了妹妹的生日礼物，
买了要交换的圣诞礼物，
看了一场电影，tron。。
男主角简直就是我的菜嘛 哈哈哈哈哈
然后呢 在murni吃晚餐，
然后jenny载我回家，
结果在车上聊到不会停，
又到附近的cafe继续谈。。
哈哈哈
今天一整天都在外面，
知道二舅去世了。。
真是世事难料。。
所以别人说，
今日不知明日事，
珍惜所拥有的吧。。
二舅，rest in peace..

好忙。

终于忙完了考试，
几天在缺少睡眠下，
拼命k书。。
星期二那张，
成绩应该不能看。。
因为本小姐就是时间分配不足，缺少练习，来不及做完，
而且粗心大意的miss了很多分。。
没办法，明年六月再来，
我不信我pass不了。。
再来呢，
今天的那一张，
问题可以说是out of expectation..
不过呢，我还是bla了一大堆。。
希望希望能pass就好了，
我不贪心的。。呵呵。。
哈哈。。终于考完了。。
明天就要回到我的工作岗位了。。
真是有点blue..
听同事说，这个星期六有年尾收工宴。。
还不错。。真的好快哦。。我已经不知不觉作了10个月了。。
这个星期决定好好休息。。
男朋友星期五就到韩国一个星期，看泡菜妹，吃泡菜饭。。
我应该会想他，因为就连讯息都不能啊啊啊啊。。
不过上个周末，他已经陪了我2天2夜。。
话说上个星期六，我和他吵了一架。。
我不知道原来我是醋意很重的人，
我在吵架时，原来是那么的冷酷。。
哈哈哈哈不过还是被他tam回了啦。。
下个星期就是圣诞节了。。
hohohohoho出门逛街到处都是sales!!!
我上个星期出门逛街，收获=2对鞋子~
开心，吃了想吃的韩国餐。。
甘愿了。。
对hor..
要物色一下圣诞节礼物和1周年纪念礼物了。。
好快哦。。
2011年我好期待您的到来哦~~~~


我的宝贝男友 <3


韩国餐~没得去韩国只好吃韩国餐咯~~~


很久没自拍了，很‘阳光’吧~哈哈哈哈哈



我们的一周年就快要到了。。
记得上个星期吵架后去逛街，
你看到一件t-shirt,上面写着'you know i love you'..
你说要买一件。。
我就问你，为什么呢？
结果你第一次说了'i love you'这个字。。不过声音小到~~~~
可是我心里，可以说是。。甜到~~~
我也想说，
我爱你，亲爱的。。

假期

星期二是假期。

星期一晚上，看了一场电影，

和姐妹们聚一聚，喝个茶。。

然后男朋友在等了我几个小时后，

千里迢迢到pj吃了个宵夜，

然后载我回家。。

很开心。。

因为可以和姐妹们聚一聚，

然后也知道，

男友原来也会有不舍得我。。

其实看电影之前有点属于要吵架的状态。。

因为我撇下他，和姐妹们看戏去了。。

其实他也很累了，睡眠很不足。。

可是还是愿意那么远特地想要来见我，

因为就快要到韩国旅行一个星期。。

帮亲爱的按摩肩膀，

没到五分钟就睡着了，可见的他又多累。。

心里心疼又有一丝甜。。

第二天睡醒后。。

等他起床，然后小两口享受着微风，

玩着他的新玩具-ipad,吃着妈妈炒的米粉，真写意。。

吃饱了，玩够了，没事做，又睡午觉。。

然后睡了一会儿，我就起床，然后动手做muffins了。。

最近很上瘾。。

烤蛋糕饼干和烹饪都还蛮过瘾的。。

今天所做的是巧克力豆牛奶muffins。。

很成功，连不爱蛋糕的老妈和老妹都说好吃。。

做了18个，现在还剩2个。。

因为男友吃了2个，拿了6个回家当第二天早餐。。

很满足。。尤其是男友很捧场，就连家里我做的巧克力雪球也吃光了。。

然后陪了我去吃晚餐才回家。。

今天真的过得好写意，好休闲的一天。。

谢谢你陪我，亲爱的。。

好吧。。睡醒后，就要努力读书了。。

加油加油加油！！！




chocochips milk muffins.
很可爱，也很好吃哦 =D

喜。

星期六。
午。
大爷老妈寄了封短讯息给我，
吓了我一跳。
可是看了讯息，
眉都笑了。。
好在没白费呀。。
呵呵。。

晚。
大爷寄了封图片短信息给我，
好奇心，
问了问。
真替他开心呀。。
亲爱的，真幸运。
呵呵。。

真是快乐的一天。。

悟。

你没错。
他没错。
那是谁呢？
我吗？
别把错独揽，问问自己，
我真的错吗？
还是各有各的错？
抚心自问吧。。
现实。


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恭喜大爷有了个新玩具。。呵呵。。

我是个懒虫。

今天，晃来晃去，滚来滚去。。

还是没办法专心读书。。

亲爱的每一次打来的电话，都问："有读书吗？"

然后呢，我都会撒娇敷衍他去。。

叹。。

我真的好懒。。

读书其实不难，在于本小姐懒，太好玩。。

不能真的很专心对着一本书猛k。。

现在已经凌晨两点了。。

我的D现在在离我遥远的地方。。

不过星期二就能见到他了。。

好在昨晚那位大爷在上班后赶来陪我吃晚餐。。

不然我可会想死他。。呵呵。。

现在听着英国电台，

不想睡觉，可是也不想读书，怎么办啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊?


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巧克力小雪球。。
昨天赶在大爷放工前做好的，原本准备分给其他人的。。
哪里知道，成果不多，
一盒给大爷，一盒给大爷的妈，一小盒给老妹。。
呵呵不过大爷很赏面的今天就给它吃光了。。
不过这个配方还不错，下次可以再做。。呵呵。。

久违了，我的部落格。

好久好久。我已经没来这里写写了。。

最近的我。。

好吗？

我不知道。。

最近有一种想法。。

自己不被任何人重视。。

存在的意义好像一点一点被抹杀了。。

认为父母，好像不是很疼我似的。。

可能一些小事情，就让我觉得我其实就是一个他们只是义务上养大我的。。

可是在父母沟通了以后，

毕竟他们是疼我的。。

只不过自己想法太自私了。。

很庆幸往往自己要往偏激的想法去时被拉回来。。

只能说，我太不孝了。。

我爱我的家人，为什么我要有这样的想法呢？

朋友呢。。

觉得自己好像被忽略了。。朋友们越来越少找我了。。

也许认为我忙吧。。

做了件错事。。伤了自己，也伤了别人。。

也许最近的我，太情绪化了。。

以往理智的我，去了哪里呢？

情绪在爆炸后，一发不可收拾。。

伤得自己在那儿掉眼泪。。

然后也懊恼自己为什么出言不慎。。

害怕刹那瞬间毁了我们的友情。。

原来自己是多么的笨。。

朋友的谅解，让我更加内疚。。

姐妹们，对不起。。谢谢你们的友谊。。

是自己太压抑了吗？所有不安的情绪，一发不可收拾。。

还是压力呢？

考试阿。。

读书啊。。

其实好像有一点点压力。。

不想浪费我之前所做的决定。。

我应该要努力的。。往前走。。

acca是个必经之路。。

我要征服它！！

阿好烦躁阿。。

所幸的事。。

身边有一个疼我的男友。。

虽然阿，有些小缺点。。可是呢。。

是个很有耐心，

能忍耐我的坏脾气，

是个很细心的男人，

每当伤心时向他哭诉。。

他会当我的听众，也会以个朋友的立场，来给与我意见。。

虽然和他在一起的时间，并不是很长。。

平常阿，也没听他说爱我啊，什么承诺。。

可是当我像他哭诉没人疼，他就会说他会疼我。。

当我说我对任何人都不重要，他就会说我对他是重要的。。

上个星期，当我和他提到关于陈小春的婚礼穿球鞋有多特别。。

他就轻轻摸着我的头发，说那下次我也穿，那你也穿哦。。

只是无心的一句，让我感觉很窝心，很甜。。

因为你真的有和我继续走下去的打算。。

不能保证什么，只有好好的珍惜所拥有的。。

一切顺其自然。。

谢谢上天给与我的一切。。

我有那么好的家人，朋友，和爱人。。

我应该要好好经营我的一切。。

这是一种对别人也对自己好的一种方式。。

我真的好爱你们。。


我和最疼爱的妹妹，虽然有时吵架，可是还是我那个最宝贝的小妹。。


我和我的姐妹们。。我爱hapc5 <3


疼爱我的男人 <3

thanks.

we talked.
we discussed.
we solved.
thanks my boy <3

confused,insecured.

you are always my priority,but am i your priority?
i spend my time missing you so much..
i had been sinking myself too deep..
will i get drown?
i just need something to assure..
what i give is worth it..
its all about give and take..
somehow,
i always stuck in the confusion..
asking myself..
am i too greedy for wanting you too much?
im afraid of losing you..
im afraid of losing my heart..
im afraid of heart-broken..
thats why it makes me feel like run away..
but i cant leave everytime i think about you..
because you are the one who attracts me so much..
you are the only one that i can fill in my heart..

rainbow.

Rainbow ~ 22/5/2009

Lucky to catch a glimpse of rainbow after more than 8 years..
i was so excited that time as my boy was fetching me to hulu langat for dinner..
rainbow rainbowwwwww...dear dear...



my boy.. heart him so muchhh

audit.

today is my first time doing audit in client's company.
went to puchong this morning...
did audit there..
well its kinda interesting..
at least no need to stuck inside the office..
im bored with the accounting stuffs..
sighh..
am fucking tired this few weeks..
OT OT OT..
rushing accounts and audit..
sighhh
thats life isnt it?
we got to pay for what we gain..
i always believe,
life is about give and take =D
gotta enjoy it hehe...

stickwitu ♥ ♥ ♥

my boy,u know what is the happiest moment for me?
its not about spending money, go out shopping or what..
im just happy when you are just beside me..
even talking, just sitting there,
or when you're holding my hand..
because in the moment, i know that you are not forgetting me..
a lil move..
just like when we walk,
you just walk and lend your hand...
then i lend my hand...
u will hold my hand...
a simple move that could make me feel sweet..
my boy,
you dont know how much you meant to me..
you are the best boyfriend i ever had.
its not about how long we met,
its the way we go thru our relationship..
sometimes i am quiet,
because i enjoy listening to you..
sometimes i am jealous,
because i couldnt stand my best boy being admired by others..
sometimes i am talkative,
because i want to share my everything with you..
i like you calling me dear dear,
i like you sending message telling me good morning..
i like you kissing me thru the phone..
i like you to hear me talking in the phone even you are tired..
i like you to share your favourite things with me..
my boy,
i dont know how long we can go..
but i know if we cherish this relationship,
then we can walk along together as long as we could..
thanks for having you.
thanks for sharing your moment with me.
M ♥ D

waiting.

i am a person who can wait for many things,can wait for many ppls..
i do admit that i got enough patience to wait..
i wonder how long i spent on waiting..
waiting for ppl,waiting for something..
waiting and waiting..
the expectation to see is getting lower as the longer im waiting..
sighhhh
cant describe the feeling..
why im not the person who let ppl waiting but im always the person to wait..

friday.

finally its friday again.
been working for ot for whole week d.
sighh..whatever..
because its friday!!!and oh yea almost finish my onhand job..
hopefully next week dont ot till 9 la..
really tired especially facing the numbers for hours.
damnnnnn annoying if there are lotsa outstanding information and documents..

btw today finally its around 7.45pm.
my dad cant get to fetch me home today..
thought of lepak with my friends but cant make it..
but lovely..
went for dinner in a&w.
and then fetched me back..
thanks a lot..
because im not in the mood today..

you and me.

our song.
thanks for having you,my boy.

new post =D

well never been here for fucking damn long..
because im so so so busy..
ahahahaha busy working,busy dating,busy resting.
just to update...
got a job in a management & accounting firm.
its new for me but i kinda enjoy the learning process..
been doing audit,tax,and accounts..
now my life style is so healthy..lol
gotta be happy because im not like the old me anymore..
been sleeping late and too many night life..
sighh..

and oh yea.
got a D.
my oh my D..
glad that he is mine.
appreciate everything and i hope everything will last long =D

sighhhhhh
wanted to meet many friends.
they asked me to hang out for many times.
but i always ffk them..
sorry for that because i knew the feeling of being ffk.
because recently been busy on work..
my weekend left for my D,my family,and sometimes my jimui..
they are always my priority..
wish i could make it one day..

and oh yea..
made up my mind.
i decided to take two papers on this december..
gotta work harder now..
i know i am not a person who can stay calm and peace on my recent position.
i gotta achieve the higher 1..
i knew i was too lazy and had been slacking too much
AND my weakness is LAZINESS!!
screw it!!!
but i really need a strong determination for this..
OMG my study+working life gonna come soon.
bless me!!!

its 11.22pm now..and im waiting for someone call..
wondering is he sleeping now?
sighhh ciao..

with me.

finally change the playlist..
WITH ME by SUM41
i love this song so much so much..
i dont know why..
just feel like its amazing..and very touching..
had been listening to this song long time ago..
but i still wont get bored with it..
such a nice song....

Lyrics:
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
That I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
have come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
that I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
that I won't let go



Enjoy it =D

SUMMARY =D

well im so lazy updating my blog..
now finally im free and of course,im in the mood to blog..
so,here's the summary for what i had done last few weeks..


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24/12-xmas eve
went to genting with my hapc5 jimuis-moi,meiyee,jenny,jojo
and met dave and james there too.
genting was so crowded lar..
and i met a lot of friends there.
was exhausted after lepak-ing there for many many hours.
then we went to mushroom farm before coming back to kl.
because that time there was so misty and drizzling.
and back at around 3..


mushroom farm.got yummy mushroom there haha XD

me and jojo~♥

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30/12-31/12-new year eve.
nana came to kl..
and brought her to makan makan makan again XD
and new year eve, we went to genting again to countdown with nana,justin,iying n limo.
this was my 1st time countdown in genting.
crowded.but not as crowded as on xmas eve..
nice fireworks..and nice weather.not as cold as on xmas eve.haha
and lepak lepak and met ling,yung,june there too..
went back at around 4something.
limo was exhausted after fetching me home..poor guy..
anywayy happy new year 2010!!♥ ♥ ♥


ampang yongtaufu & thaifood..yummyyy

me and nana~


lovely night in genting~happy~~♥ ♥ ♥

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6/1-new hair colour+skybar
got my new hair colour in sotong's salon there.
and curly hair style.i love it..haha but its just temporary..
permanent 1 not suitable for me because hard to manage..
limo came to find me.and went for dinner with him,jojo,and jenny..
we made a sudden decision-skybar..
love skybar there..nice environment,house music,lovely ppl..chilling there for few hours.then jenny n jojo got high after drinking cocktails.LOL so cute lar jojo she was tipsy.LOL


me and moimoi~she got a new hair colour too =D

my curly+new hair colour ~ ♥

me and jenny XD

me and ah mo~

me with my cocktail-strawberry haze

~gals of the night-jojo,jenny and me~




♥ skybar-nice environment~chilling place

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7/1-my 1st salary
today i got my 1st salary after 21 years..
feel: excited.finally i know the feeling of earning money by myself.although its in small amount.but im still happy getting money..haha


thats what im doing for three days...

4/12-6/12-pc fair,i worked at maxis broadband booth.

my agent company-AXN's group pic..nice to know them and happy working in this pcfair =D

me and iying-talked nonstop during work hahaha

me and sweet gal-nicky

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13/1-15/1-met my honey ting and nana~~♥
nana came to kl and overnight in ting's house.and i joined along too..
it was the 1st time we 3 gather again after for few years.just like secondary school time.
i miss it so much..
and after few years,we talked and laughed nonstop,just like old times..nothing changed..just we were getting older.haha
we went to sunway pyramid,1u to shop..
we chilled in skybar and MOS too..
and of course,makan non-stop hahahaha..
been gaining weight after that sob sob..


me and fish

me and tingggg

me and nana

i knew her for 15 years =D

lovely night with lovely them~

me.haha

just like our secondary times..*heart*

hot babes LOL ♥ ♥ ♥

ice-creammmmm i love it so so much~♥

gals love dessert..so do us~~♥ LOL

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17/1-old dogs
went for movie-old dogs in the curve..
and it was so funny..
and ahemm..sweet..
hehe..



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fuhhhhhhhh~finally finish this post~~
tired-nyaaaaaa...hope i can be more hardworking sikit to blog more larr XD
btw i just start my plan to keep fit lerr today..
i wanna lose weight larrr!!!
had been makan makan makan non-stop last few weeks lerrr~
so PLEASE DO NOT FEED ME!!!NO JUNKIES PLEASE!!!
and oh yea i wanna save money for langkawi tripppp..
planned to go after chinese new year..perhaps march or april lu wakakakaka~
and hor..recent got good news lor in my hapc5 members..wakakakaka
happy for them nehhh~
okayyy lar tired betul~~~
take care everyone~~CHAOZZZZ ~~~♥ ♥ ♥